i am. honored
& i’m so happy for everyone else that was awarded as well. as it is nice to be reassured that i am not the most hated person in the grade (because as dramatic as that sounds, sometimes it feels like it), it is only a piece of paper. not to sound like Cady Heron during her prom queen speech, but chances are i’m the only one that is going to remember who won this. i’ve always thought of myself as someone who doesn’t need approval from others, but my reaction to winning this proves that to be false. i am prisoner to social standards. i will never be perfect, but i have spent my entire life trying to be.
