the other day i was lying in bed, bored, scrolling through my camera roll. there were pictures from prom, europe, mexico, tailgates, family gatherings, and lots and lots of good food i once stuffed my face with. these were all highlights of my life. & i hope i appreciated these moments while i was living them. i hope i enjoyed every second. yet, i’m not sure i did. in this pic, i’m in cinque terre in italy. while i knew i was having this amazing experience, i don’t know if i fully appreciated it for what it was. & most likely, i was thinking about where i was going next & when i would get there. i’m not sure if i got the most out of that short time there.
i know we all do this, focus on what’s next, and when we do get to whatever is next, we fail to fully appreciate it. in the winter, we all crave summer, but in the summer, we never take full advantage of it. this summer, i vow to stay outside all day and channel sheryl crow by soaking up the sun. i am going to focus on making the most of all moments, big and small, good and bad. the first sip of ice cold water, the hours of studying necessary for a good grade, the feeling you get when you hear the first beat of your favorite song.
i know there are some moments i just cant get back. like, playing thumb wars with my grandpa for the last time. i wish i could remember his smell, his laugh. i wish i appreciated him more while he was still around.
because i know that these moments are fleeting, i will try my best to enjoy every second.
