i sit at a coffee shop, surrounded by strangers &, for some reason, i feel at home. very much myself.
i sit in a room full of people i’ve met a couple of times. there is drinking involved, yet i still feel uncomfortable.
why is this?
i may be the only person who feels this way, but i am much more comfortable in a room surrounded by strangers, people that i know i will never see again, than mutual friends. (this is not including my best friends, i am MOST myself with them).
when you see someone you don’t know do something embarrassing, you usually just laugh at them and forget about it. when you see someone you kinda know do something embarrassing, you will tell your other friends or potentially judge them. well, i am that person doing the embarrassing things.
i’m pretty sure this is why i don’t put a lot into friendships that i don’t already have. i’m afraid of being judged. there’s that weird phase after you meet someone and before they are a close friend that i am yet to master.
if anyone has any tips to somehow get rid of this fear of the “in between” phase, i’d love to hear it.
