i recently read an @iam.becoming post, and it got my thinking. i am a male of a certain age & was brought up in a time that wasn’t as nurturing to boys and men as we are now.
i have lost several aunts and uncles early on in life, and throught those experiences i learned by observation that men don’t show emotion.
fast forward. i still walk through days as “okay.” hiding my emotions like i’ve been trained to do. while underneath it all, i’m not okay. i’m tired. i’m hurting. i’m anxious. i’m lonely. i’m fearful. & i’m saddened by the state of our world.
i am trying to unlearn a lot of my upbringing. i keep telling myself that i should speak to a professional for help with this. i have two awesome kids, and they need a dad who can be a role model when it comes to embracing emotion and not being afraid of feelings. my kids need a guide as they try to navigate this big scary life. i need to, and want to, be that guide. i just need help getting there.
i’m tired of not being honest about it, so i owe it to myself to say that i’m not actually okay. i’m starting today. it’s about time.
