if you know me pretty well, you know that a super distinct trait of mine is how bad my knees are. i’m that girl in gym class with the leg brace on… but like actually needs it. *no shade*
this trait has definitely become a running joke in my life, with my friends and i laughing about it constantly.
in the grand scheme of my life, my knees are a very insignificant problem. people have it much worse. yet, behind all of the jokes, they actually do cause a toll on my me mentally.
i have a condition in my knee joints called patella alta. this is when the knee cap sits abnormally high up on the joint, causing frequent knee cap dislocation or subluxation (gross). this means that whenever i perform any physical activity involving my legs (sadly, even walking) i am at risk of my knee cap spazzing out. & i have this in both knees.
i’ve always loved staying active – especially dancing. however, over the years, my creative little bones have made it very difficult for me to have the confidence to dance.
i’ve slowly come to accept that there are certain things i cannot execute as flawlessly as others. there are certain angles my legs physically cannot fully straighten at without subluxation. that’s just how it is.
this has been a very hard pill for me to swallow, but it has cause me to learn so much about myself and my determination. i know i’m going to keep pushing to be the best dancer i can be with the legs i was given. i’m going to keep working at bettering myself & not focus on my weaknesses. i’m not going to let this stop me from doing what makes me happy.
i may know my limitations, but i believe i have new strengths waiting to be uncovered as well!
