i am. in the moment
as i was writing thank you cards for my graduation party, i kept asking my mom if the person i was thanking was actually at the party. and thats when it hit me. i planned this party for months, and never got the chance to enjoy it. it was a whirlwind of “hi’s” and “bye’s” and, before i knew it, the night was over. but thats how my life has been, recently. in the past two months, i have gone to Chicago twice, New York once, two concerts, a college orientation, graduation, and more grad parties than i can remember (i also began working with some pretty incredible people). as amazing as it sounds, i barely remember any of it. i was way too stressed about what i had to do and where i had to go to enjoy it. and, no matter how much i want to, i cant go back and relive these moments.
today, i went to a little store on white lake and bought a snow cone. yes, a freaking snow cone. and it brought me back to my childhood. a place i wish i could revisit every day. a significantly easier time. a time when the taste of the snow cone was all that mattered. & bro, life is so short. as cliché as it sounds, it flashes before your eyes. for much of my life, i have been so focused on what lies ahead that i haven’t fully appreciated the small, but significant moments & i regret it more than you can imagine. from this point on, i am no longer going to worry so much about the future & deprive myself of the beauty of the moment. instead of that snow cone representing a potentially messy inconvenience, i will savor every dang bite.
and in the end, it’s not the years in your life that count. It’s the life in your years. -Abe Lincoln
