if you have been with me on this whole blogging journey since day one, you will know that i was deferred, then waitlisted, from university of michigan. with admissions released yesterday (& what feels like all of my wicked smart friends getting deferred) i feel like i can maybe share some insight. note: like always, take this for what it…

a new friend of mine read my post yesterday and began picking my brain. we talked mostly about my eating disorder and my relationship with my dad (both of which have improved immensely). after he got a good grasp of what both of these situations were really like for me, he began to feel bad. “your life has been so…

i look back at my story highlights often. they remind me of my trips to california, europe, the carolinas, chicago, new york and all of the tomfoolery that happened during the past few years. but when i look back and see a picture of myself from two years ago, the plesant bittersweet emotion that i had previously been consumed in…

“wait. christmas is tomorrow?” i woke up on the morning of the 25th alone in my house. i laid in bed dozing off for four hours listening to every flipturn song i could before crawling out of bed – only to fulfill my bodies demand for coffee. i didn’t really have much other reason to leave its warmth. all of…

thanksgiving is my favorite holiday, but that’s not the only reason i love november. you get the perfect mix of fall and winter vibes, without the stress of the holiday season. this month i’ve been super into redecorating my new condo with my roommate as well as trying to practice yoga as much as possible to keep my calm during…

last night, my roommate laid down on the dining room floor. she told me that after going to therapy, she learned to sometimes just lay down and think. her favorite thing to think about is where she is in life. because i’m a busy body, i was baking brownies and filling up the ice trays when she did this. she…

i posted on my story this past weekend a photo of my crying with the caption “i’m not okay” for approximately 45 seconds before taking it down. for the past few years, i have been having negative thoughts about myself. i have a mental health issue. but i didn’t believe it until recently because my problems don’t look the same…

i recently read an @iam.becoming post, and it got my thinking. i am a male of a certain age & was brought up in a time that wasn’t as nurturing to boys and men as we are now. i have lost several aunts and uncles early on in life, and throught those experiences i learned by observation that men don’t show emotion.…

self care isn’t all it’s cracked up to be. there. i said it. after struggling with an eating disorder, i looked to other social media bloggers for comfort in similar stories and to learn about their journeys. i wanted to know how they did it, & if it ever actually gets better. through others, i learned the basics of self…

& not your grammar. years ago, my mom bought me a desk plaque that says, “i’m silently correcting your grammar” because i was overly concerned with “fixing” double negatives, making sure people weren’t combining past & present tenses, and pointing out people’s misuse of the word “aesthetically”. my freshmen year of college, i took an introduction to linguistics course and…