i’m not going to lie, recently, i’ve hated the way i look. this past year i’ve gained 10 lbs, stopped working out as much, never wear makeup or do my hair, started living in sweatpants, & so on. it feels like i’ve given up on myself. when i scroll through pictures of myself from last year, i actually kinda liked…
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i am. not my past
i was a b1t¢h in middle school. i’m talking regina george from meal girls type vibe. competitive, petty, & overall a trash human. every time i look back i cringe. thankfully, i am no longer that person & really thank god that no one looks at me and sees my middle school self. not everyone is so lucky. take my…
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i am. making the rules
i think the hardest part about dating is those unspoken rules that you’re just supposed to come out of the womb knowing. like we aren’t supposed to text back too quickly or we will be seen as clingy. never ever bring up wanting to be exclusive in the first month. & god forbid you bring up something you found out…
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i am. educating myself
intelligence is sexy. but that doesn’t mean you need to pull a will hunting on me & recite the words of some famous dead french guy like foucault. having some friends that never even considered college and others being premed, i find it so interesting that the amount of school a person has, or how prestigious their major is has…
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i am. doing it now
lets talk about timing, shall we? “i just don’t think its the right time.” i can’t tell whether i use it as an excuse because i don’t want to do something, because i’m scared, or simply because it’s habit. & is it because i don’t think it’s the right timing, or is that what society is telling me? all i…
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i am. forgiving
within 24 hours, two people i never thought i’d hear from again reached out to me. these people were ones that i had beef with, but it was so long ago that i forgot what even caused it (i’m talking middle school drama). yet, there they were, messaging me to apologize. without a doubt i forgave them. apparently, this quarantine…
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i am. alone, but not lonely
growing up with my best friend being my mom, always having a boyfriend, or just being completely consumed with dance, i was never alone. my extended family has always made comments about how i should learn to do things on my own, but that never bothered me. at least not until recently. with quarantine, a recent breakup, my brothers being…
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i am. singing along
i’ve never been the one to take aux because i thought my music taste sucks. (it didn’t help that my ex boyfriend once said “what is this” the first time i took aux in his car…. i’ll never let him live it down even though he felt bad about it hahahah). i recently acknowledged that you may think my music…
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i am. getting better
earlier this week, i was workshopping my fiction piece with my classmates over zoom. as someone who sucks at writing fiction, i wrote a slightly fabricated version of a real story. a story about an eating disorder. the girl who was leaving my workshop also lives in rochester, and could tell by my details that this wasn’t very much fiction…
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i am. traveling cheap
i was messaging someone recently & we were talking about travel. he wanted some tips, and as i was typing, i realized i had a lot more up my sleeve than i thought. so here i am! hi! throwing out some advice on how to travel cheap. if you already know all of them, then hats off to you, but…